How To Fail
We may come to a place where we are so averse to failure that we avoid it at all cost …which maybe sounds like the path of success, but what tends to happen along that path is not the success we want. What if, in order to succeed, rather than avoiding failure, what we need, is to become good at failure.
Do you know the story about the farmer who went out to plant seed in his field?
As he was scattering seed, some fell along the path; it was trampled on, and the birds ate it up. Some seed fell on rocky ground, and when it came up, the plants withered because they had no moisture. Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up with it and choked the plants. Still other seed fell on good soil. It came up and produced a hundred times more than what was planted.”
Do you see that most seed fails. But if you look outside, it certainly does not appear so. What if this story is saying, “most of what we try doesn’t work” ….but what does work, really works. Most of our attempts fail but if we are persistent and generous enough with our attempts, a few of those attempts will be abundantly successful.
Do you see that this is already true in your life. When you were little, you fell over and over again. Learning to walk was failure upon failure …until it was a success. Playtime was so much about repeating what didn’t work …until it did work. You and I grew so much when we offered generous allowance for failure.
We might come to believe, “Failure is embarrassing and shameful; failure means that we’re inferior; failure means we’ll never get it; failure means the door is closed; or maybe we can’t afford to fail?” But avoiding failure will be our most disappointing failure.
If we must succeed, it will be necessary to learn to fail generously.
We must not be above failure. We are born of failure.
Who Needs Therapy?
For too many years, I thought therapy was for other people. I could think my way out of problems.
The thinking solution only half works. And your partner will be the first to notice when the other half is missing. They did not just choose a thoughtful and practical partner. They chose one with whom an emotional bond could form. This part often retreats when couples get closer (ie. move in, get married, share a family…). It seems easier to manage a relationship without the messiness of the emotional half. But this retreating half never goes away. It is always a part of you. It is there but it is neglected. It hurts. This is who needs therapy.
Watch the video below entitle “How to Beat the Bully" and consider this: Sometimes we bully a part of ourselves.. One half dominates the other. We may decide that emotions are weak and cannot be trusted while thoughts are strong and reliable. The experience of therapy will help you to discover, your neglected half was a strong trustworthy partner all along.
This Attitude Hurts Your Relationship
Sometimes relationships get too polite and generous.
“What do you want to eat?“
“Whatever you’d like honey.”
”What show do you want to watch?”
“I doesn’t matter to me. You choose.“
“Where do you want to go out?”
“Whatever you want, dear.”
At first, this is considerate, but notice what happens when you keep this up for too long. When one person is continually deferring to the other, it is now conflict avoidance. You’ll know that you’ve reached this point when your partner is no longer happy with your generous answers. Now your conflict avoidance has create a new conflict, and this conflict is one that waits to be resolved at your end.
At some point, if you continue to defer your desire (ie. what you want), your partner will experience your lack of desire and it will hurt. They will sense that something is missing (ie. your desire for them), but it may be difficult for them to see what is missing behind your polite gestures. A part of them, will remember something missing from the beginning of the relationship -a feeling of desirability. That when was when you knew what you wanted and you went after it. It was your favourite food, a fascinating show, an adventure to go on …it was them.
Watch the video below on deferring dynamics and see that “a happy wife” is NOT the recipe for a happy life.
Relax! This Will Hurt!
When my chiropractor tells me to relax, I brace myself for pain. It’s about to hurt, but I will be thankful after the adjustment when the pain I came in with is released.
She counts down, “relax in 3, 2 ,1…” but before “1” is fully formed into word, the adjustment has already happened. She tricked me again! She knows that when it hurts, it is almost impossible to relax.
It’s the same with emotional pain. When it hurts, we tense up. Just like on the chiropractor’s table, a protective reflex kicks in to keep it from hurting more. But this reflex is the very tension that holds on to the pain both when it is physical and when it is emotional.
It is difficult to relax when it hurts.
Psychotherapy gives us the ability to relax with emotional pain so that we can hear its complaint, adjust appropriately, and release the pain.
How to Negotiate with Terrorists and Kids
Why are kids so unreasonable?! It is because they are also emotional. And so are you and I! This is a wonderful reality, until it seems that emotions have achieved a hostile takeover. A crucial exercise in our human experience is to balance our practical and emotional parts of self.
One of the crucial roles of a parent is that of emotional guide. And what makes the task such a challenge is that at the beginning of parenting we are not fully equipped for the task. We are still in the process of emotional formation …now under the stress of parenting!
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Perhaps rather than blaming parenting for stress, we should credit parenting for the completion of our own emotional formation. Yes, we take on stress for a child’s emotional growth, but it is just as true that the same stress catalyzes our own growth.
If you are looking for elaboration on this perspective, I recommend Dr. Shefali Tsabary’s The Conscious Parent (Transforming Ourselves and Empowering our Children).
Perhaps you’ll find that these priorities are also the very ones that you feel are under personal threat when your child is upset …and now you are upset.
Transcript:
Chris Voss, former lead international hostage negotiator for the FBI explained: the terrorist demand - the money, the helicopter, the window for escape - the demand is not the highest order demand. The highest order objective is control. After that, it's an emotional validation a feeling that they're respected and understood and somewhere below that sits the demand.
Now, this is important to keep in mind when it comes to parenting children and adolescents. Not so that we can strategize to outwit with them, but so that we can discharge some of the upsetting energy that's hidden behind the demand. For children and adolescents the demand is not always as high a priority as it may appear. It doesn't seem like that because all we hear is the demand:
“I want to stay up later.”
“I want more screen time.”
“I want something else to to eat.”
But at the top of the list for every growing and healthy individual is a need to establish a sense of personal control, or autonomy. They're growing into an increased level of responsibility. And when this ability to choose feels threatened, it can send anyone into a panic.
Second on the list for a demanding child or adolescent is emotional validation:
Are my feelings valid? Is it normal to feel this way inside? Is it normal for me to feel upset when I'm not getting what I want or when it may seem that my power to choose is under threat? And if it's not normal, or if my experience feels under question, then I begin to wonder if I'm normal, or if I'm okay, or if I'm valid.
And this can be really terrifying
Now, validating emotion is not a permissive resignation. It's not saying that it's okay to scream at someone else, or lock yourself in your room, or to treat others without respect. But it's normalizing this overwhelmingly upset inner emotional experience. It's saying:
What you're feeling inside makes sense. It's normal. It's so frustrating to not get what you want. I feel upset inside when I don't get what I want and I don't expect I'll ever grow out of that.
Now as far as the demand goes, I have four boys from elementary age to college age. It's tough being a parent, and it's so important to be able to deliver a no when we have to. But if we can offer an unqualified yes to the top two concerns, a sense of personal control, or autonomy, or emotional validation, feeling respected and understood, then you have the difference between a conversation with someone who's terrified and struggling for emotional survival, and someone who simply has an exhaustively demanding enthusiasm for life.
Both are demanding, but one is ready to negotiate
How to Have Conflict with your Partner
Transcript:
Some of my clients tell me that they never fight with their partner. Which sounds incredible, but a lot of times what this means is that the relationship at some point stop growing closer. If two people are getting closer there is always conflict, but if you can manage it well and come up with constructive solutions when you fight through conflict then you get a deeper experience of closeness.
Maybe you need more conflict in your relationship and that's where I can help.
I help individuals and couples to to put contentious differences forward and and to hold them in a constructive tension until a sensitive resolution arises. Now conflict can be an intimidating and scary experience and so it's no wonder that we avoid it. We've all had experiences where conflict has gone badly and we definitely don't want more of that. It hurt more than helped or maybe didn't help at all.
The conflict is absolutely essential in the bonding process it's in these moments when we hurt and we see our partner hurt that we we also develop we grow in our sensitivity to each other it's where the emotional bonding takes place and couples feel closer than they ever were before maintaining a healthy measure of conflict in relationships is what couples need in order to build a closer relationship one of my couple's clients reflected therapy “made it worse”. It brought out all sorts of conflict
It made it worse.
Until it was so much better.
Virus d-STRESS: How to PROJECT Yourself
Transcript:
I hope you're doing well out there through this viral crisis, and with all the prevention measures that are in place. And if you are sick on top of feeling awful, this must be very scary. I wish you well, and I hope for your recovery.
In a situation like this it's interesting to see how we react to distress. Our evolutionary genetics kick in, and we find our primal tendencies are working to get us through the crisis. So what is your destress tendency? Is it distress or is it de-stress? Here's what I mean:
Distress is like an emergency alarm. Do you signal an urgency for everyone to acknowledge the severity of the crisis? Does the expression on your face reflect the very real distress of our present reality? This is an important stress reaction, because if the house is on fire, the alarm needs to go off, everyone in the house needs to know that there's distress.
On the other hand do you de-stress?
Are you sensitive to panic that might spoil a thoughtful response? Do you destress, moving into your head, amidst the panic, and call others back to their destressed logical senses? This is also an important stress reaction, because if the house is on fire we're going to have to be able to follow a thoughtful plan so that everyone can get out.
These stress reactions are both important survival projections. We need to get them out there. We need to hear the distressing alarm, and we need to de-stress and stay calm. But over the difference instead of listening to each other, and hearing each other, and responding affirmingly to each other. Under stress, we might instead argue over the difference, and invalidate each other; One side yelling: if you don't care we're all in trouble, the other side yelling back: stop panicking and calm down. I think the tug of war has its place, sometimes. We need one more than the other, depending on the situation, but in every situation survival favors the consideration of both. We need both.
We need each other. We need to hear the distressing alarm, and we need to de-stress and stay calm. So what if this is what we projected forward in crisis? We need each other. Not: my way or your way, but we need each other. I think we'd see the difference when it comes to getting us through this matter and any and every matter as partners, and parents, and co-workers, and friends, and neighbors, everything.
So let's start here: during this distressing crisis consider this projective measure: we need each other. I think we'll find out this was the best way for us to project ourselves and protect ourselves.
You had me at “hell no”!
Transcript:
(Scene from Jerry Maguire)
Jerry:
“I love you. You complete me. And if I just had...”
Dorothy:
“Shut up. Just shut up.....You had me at hello. You had me at hello.”
I think this scene captures well our aspirations for romantic love. Someone to love us and complete us, someone to make us whole.
But is this picture of love reality?
The psychoanalyst Lacan challenges this notion of love offering. Love is giving what you don't have to someone who doesn't want it. At first this sounds horribly pessimistic and even cynical, but I think there's something for us romantics to aspire to here.
He's saying that we all show up to relationships with holes, with flaws, with pieces that are missing. He calls it a “lack”. We tend to not even know about these holes until someone else is allowed to get up close and personal.
Our unsuspecting lover.
They thought we were going to be the perfect partner and we were just as surprised as they were to find something repulsive.
What's possible now in this relationship when this flaw can't be hidden again, it can't be fixed, it can't be ignored, and the possibility of love suggested by Lacan, our partner, rather than despising us because of this flaw, might stick around and stay with us in our disappointment. They might comfort us in our distress over this newfound flaw and we might also comfort them in their distress. In an extraordinary irony our flaw becomes the very sight of endearment. The very sight of secure love, and over time comforting love gives way to a secure bond.
Love is giving what you don't have to someone who doesn't want it.
Your partner will eventually bring you face to face with what's missing and it will be upsetting for both of you. They won't complete you and you won't complete them, but instead you might bring each other a deeply securing comfort.
It's not a perfect relationship, but it might be much better than that.
Two Demands that Ruin Relationships
“It’s calm under the waves in the blue of my oblivion”
THE NEED FOR “CLOSE” CAN SOUND LIKE:
“Don’t you walk away from me!”
“I feel alone in this relationship.”
“All he/she does is shutdown.”
“It feels like I don’t even matter to him/her anymore.”
THEE NEED FOR “CALM” CAN SOUND LIKE:
“Will you just calm down!”
“I just don’t know what to do when he/she is so angry.”
“All he/she does is criticize me.”
“No matter what I do, I never get it right for him/her.”
Maybe we’re just not compatible.
There’s another possibility …what if my demand is fuelling my partners anger and aversion? And what if instead of asserting my demand, I understood and waited on my partner’s vulnerable need? What if instead of explaining and defending my justified response, it was safe simply to hurt? And what if, at my most vulnerable, I knew that I was safe and at home?
VULNERABILITY CAN SOUND LIKE:
“When I shut down,
it must seem like I don’t care about you
and that you don’t matter.
You must feel very alone when I walk away.
It must feel like I’m rejecting you.
That must really hurt.
Tell me more.
I really do care”.
“When I’m upset,
it must seem like I am always making it your fault.
You must feel beat up by my criticism.
It must be overwhelming for you
when nothing you do or say will calm me down.
You must feel like an idiot around me.
That must be really exhausting.
Take your time.
I miss you.”
There emerges a new possibility in the ease of demands and in the persistence of safety and vulnerability. Here the goal is not the dismissal of pain but the it’s welcome …and comfort. And in a relationship where comfort is the priority, calm and close are seldom far behind.
“Shame on You!”
Why must you wear the shame?
What do I hope to accomplish with the shame on you?
Why must anyone wear the shame?
Where did the shame come from in the first place?
Who is wearing it now?
“Shame is a soul eating emotion.”
When I declare “shame on you”, I am trying to escape “shame on me”. Shame is a proverbial hot potato of intolerable soul eating emotion so unbearable that it is unwittingly passed on to anyone within immediate range.
In my reassignment of this dreadful burden, I cannot send it away. Nor can I change the “undesirable” quality in you, mirroring undesirability in myself, and rousing a smoldering internal anguish. This banishment will only deny your rescuing comfort and bury this dangerous grievance more inaccessibly within myself. The projected punishment of “shame on you” represents a more critical occupation of “shame on me” crying out to you for desperate relief.
But what if instead of sending you away with my burden of shame on you, I confided to you the shame on me.
“Shame cannot survive being spoken. It cannot survive empathy”